Earl Harris III
Two books, “Facing the Mountain” and “Prequel” sit on my nightstand with pages yet unturned, begging to be read. “Killers of the Flower Moon” has come to my local theater while the first three movies on Netflix’s list of new releases, “All the Light We Cannot See”, “NYAD”, and “Sly” await to been seen.
Meanwhile, my multi-page “To Do List” sits idly on my desk with a curious combination of work tasks and a scattering of fun activities waiting to be checked off. Among the items are short-term tasks, long-term projects and seasonal-stuff, like raking the ton of Fall leaves from the garden and off our decks and the cleaning of gutters along the perimeter our roof. Missing from the list entirely are the daily routines of cleaning house, fixing dinner, doing dishes, finishing off a load of laundry, etc., etc. Few people, including me, put daily routines on our lists, but these “dailies” must be reckoned with, nonetheless.
Finally, there are other things that constantly vie for my attention and cannot be ignored. Those things include the care and feeding of two geriatric cats and an ever increasing need to look after my 97 year-old mother-in-law, whom I love to pieces. My wife, Cindy, and her twin sister are at the halfway point along a 500-mile hiking section of the Camino de Levante in Spain and won’t be returning home for another three weeks. I am currently her sole caregiver at the moment. If you are a caregiver for an elderly person, you will likely understand what caregiving entails. It's a labor of love and it can be very time consuming.
Overlaying all of this is a case of Long Covid in the form of extreme fatigue, a near continuous state of being tired throughout the day. It’s something that I’m having to deal with after contracting Covid three separate times over the past 16 months. Most of what I have read tells me that it may be months to a year before the symptoms begin to dissipate. I hope so. Are any others of you on the forum dealing with post-Covid issues?
Why, you may be asking yourself, have I chosen to disclose this? It’s because I’m wanting to take a break. I need a little respite. I need a little rest and relaxation. I want to strive less and spent more time “going with the flow”.
I’ve been reading a bit of late about the so-called “Law of Reversed Effort”. You can Google it if you’re interested, but if the phenomena described has any merit it might be at work in my life in many ways. Increasingly, it appears to me that it’s showing up in relationship to my participation on this Forum.
So, with all that, I must bid you a temporary farewell. Beginning Monday of next week, I have made a solemn promise to myself not to check into nor respond to Forum messages. I’ll be making a decision of when to return when the time seems right. In my absence I wish you the very best. For those who would like to maintain contact with me from time to time, I will respond to messages that come to my Classmate Profile Page after Monday.
Take care! Have fun! Be good!
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